Hit With a Ton of Bricks

Some of you, excluding Suz who has already stated she is too busy to notice a missing faerie that pisses her off, but the rest who I count among my friends may have noticed the faerie was down the last few days.

Last week had to go to ER because of pains in chest which now after tests has been diagnosed and confirmed as Congestive Heart Diease, I am now a full fledge card carrying member of the club. Frankly I want to be disbarred, discarded and ejected.

This has come as a huge shock to me, and the full range of emotions that ensue have run across my pink and yellow irish complexion face. I have to haul nitroglceryin pills around with me..what is that about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then I figured it out, all the hair dye, facials, waxes and treatments withstanding..dammit I am getting old. Yes its true the other day, I did something 3 years ago I would never have dreamed of, I wore a sleeveless shirt out to the barn to ride my horse!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arm fat flapping in the breeze! Yesterday I caught myself eyeing a teeshirt with a damn bunny on it..ack!!!!!!!!!

What gene in this pool suddenly kicked in to start my slow descent in to old woman mode? I just got a box of stuff from Sephora?

My family doesnt get heart diease, we die of stupid things, like digging storm shelters in sweltering 98 degrees (grandfather) or deciding to learn to swim alone in a lake (grandmother) at 90 and drown, or go hang gliding in Austria with 3rd wife and drop 100ft, uncle..this is my family history not heart diease!

So anyway I am back to blogging, back to work, and dammit I am wearing tons of mascara, my lowest cut skimpiest teeshirt in the closet and drinking life water like its going out of style..take that mortality I defy you!!!

I have missed you, wondered what you were doing, hugs

The Faerie